I had the thought the other day that for most of my life I’ve had a feeling of desperation about life and the need to stay ahead of the game of life; a need to control the outcome… Running for life as it were, and needing to have control over things that would have been so much easier to release to the Universal Goodness, to God and to the Holy Spirit through prayer and meditation… And blessing whatever was going on. Instead, I stressed and struggled and have lived a life of quiet desperation, as Henry David Thoreau so brilliantly reminded us in his writing.

So what now?

How does one allow life to unfold marvelously and intentionally without stressing over everything?

I was called to serve… After answering the call to facilitate A Course in Miracles now for the 3rd month I have realized how much I have grown spiritually, and how I’ve been able to center my thinking on the idea of oneness. After years of studying the Course of Miracles and facilitating classes, now I can see that what the course is teaching is a return to wholeness or as A Course in Miracles reminds us a return to right mindedness. A reminder that I don’t have to control the outcome. It is as simple as showing up and allowing the energy to guide me while in class. No longer do I have to have an opinion or a need to control, it is as simple as showing up open and receptive to the energy of the group.

Life seems to have stopped being a struggle and has become an extraordinary learning process and the energy of more in a balanced way. When I say balance, I am talking mostly about trusting that the Universe really has my back and that no matter what is going on in the exterior, the real me, the infinite part of me is always safe, abundant and joyful. I am not stuck, I don’t need to continue to command everything in life, now, life seems to be more effortless and joyful.

I have always had a natural inclination toward plants and a love for flowers. I feel most at ease while walking in nature and tending my garden. This has become my walking daily meditation. I seem to have a “green thumb” and I love to see my garden filled with flowers. I have a natural ability to choose plants and harmonize planted pots, plants love the way I take care of them and multiply with ease. Even now as I write about it my energy changed to the experience of tending my garden! What a joy it is to wake up in the morning and walk in the garden to see the flowers that bloomed that day; especially the ones that only flower at night and last only till morning. It is such a joy to discover new plants that I have not seen before. It reminds me of the beauty of being alive to experience the joy of walking, the joy of getting my toes wet in the sand when we walk at the beach, loving the sun and the wind on my skin. When I am gardening…. When I am walking on the beach, there is nothing else in the world, just my communion with nature and the ease of life at the moment. What can I create when I allow myself to enter into the knowingness that Godliness is so much more than the idea of a mundane life?

Living in the idea that my life is a metaphor for change and creativity and that I’ve lived trapped in the solidified beliefs that were implanted in my being-ness by society and by my parents way too long; not that any of that is wrong, but that it is time for me to allow a new idea of creation that is all mine. So, for the next part of my evolution as I grow in consciousness is a billion pieces of the puzzle of unveiling what more is possible?

Listening to the words of the Master: Know ye not that ye are Gods?

And WHAT is THAT?

Accepting what Jesus taught (John 14:12) “that greater works than these will ye do” and now look at the sky scrapers and the magnificent Golden Gate Bridge and see that we concentrated in the miraculousness of expression in the material realm and that we have also found cures for many maladies of the human condition.

Isn’t it time now to birth a new idea of unlimited abundance and a deep connection with the Divine?

Is this the reality that is waiting to be revealed? And what does that mean?

Isn’t it time to bridge the gap between the ethereal and the material? And how do we begin????

We begin with the end in mind and with the energy we would love to create in our own reality, what is the miraculousness of my life that I am not currently seeing?

So what is heaven? Isn’t heaven an idea of living in an overwhelming attitude of appreciation and gratitude? A Course in Miracles says that “creating is how we increase the kingdom and give thanks to God for our own creation”.

If gratitude is the attitude and we are creating in unison with God then we already are living in a self created heaven because heaven is the living condition of gratitude that resides within us, and in how we live our lives.

Are you a giver or a taker? Because taking is the attitude of lack and giving opens the door to limitless abundance! What are you choosing?

So you see, for me, adopting the idea that to live in gratitude opens me to receiving the gifts the universe has stored for me and that my prayers are always answered, allows me to be open to receive!

Meandering through my story may help you understand my absolute knowing that my life is always unfolding in Divine perfection and my new mantra that All of Life Comes to me with Ease, and Joy and Glory. That when I begin to suffer and control my only question is what is right about this that I am not seeing? How can I create with ease and joy?

So I was going to say… the end, here, but really for me this is just the beginning and so I am ending with my beginnings!

Living in complete allowance to the infinite possibilities that have been offered to me in this lifetime without reservations and trusting that the part of me that is always connected to the matrix of life and to the Divine is taking me by the hand and guiding my every step towards the understanding that I am already awake and that I step into life filled with complete confidence and without reservations… That is the life that I am welcoming, that makes my life worth living!

I grew up with fear… I was taught to fear everything… releasing the fear opens infinite possibilities and the energy of having arrived. Knowing that there’s nothing more to do than to follow my joy and embrace my Godliness, because it is there, it is palpable. It is as real as breathing… Nothing to buy nor to do… just be in the energy of… godliness!!!!

I love what Maya Angelo said… that you do what you know how to do and when you know better you do better! Do we know better now? It is time to awaken to the reality of our God-liness!!! What else is possible when we open our mind to the energy of more?